Crying to Jesus

Hey, God. My hands are shakin' and my feet are tappin' and I need you right now. I've been tryin' hard this week to soar like an eagle, but I feel like I've spent more time than ever before down on the ground with the turkeys! I pray that you will lift me back up and strengthen me; strengthen me with Your Holy Scripture, strengthen my spiritual walk with You, and tone me with Your Holy Spirit. Thanks for carrying me each time I crash...I love You, and I trust You. Talk to You later...

Mornin' gang. Another rough morning. Probably an effect of the Pepsi I drank last night...please pray for my caffeine addiction to totally and completely cease in the name of Jesus! I know better than to drink it, but I had a migraine coming on and Pepsi does the trick...so here I am...Sunday morning...awake since 4:00 a.m. while everyone else has been peacefully snoozing. Had to have Xanax. I feel pathetic.

You know how sometimes you just have to sit down and really cry? I mean, really, really cry...like fall to your knees and shake and just totally resurrender yourself to the One who can pick you up and give you the strength to stand? I had to have one of those moments this morning...and I'm not sure it's over yet. It's on these mornings, when I feel like an absolute crazy kook who doesn't deserve to have a faithful husband or precious babies from Heaven or supportive family...and all I can do is cry to Jesus. I'm reminded of a favorite song,

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain,
So if your sky is dark
And pours the rain...

Cry to Jesus,

Cry to Jesus,

Cry to Jesus and LIVE.

I'm trying to live. Never in my life did I think I'd have to literally put effort into and try to live. But, here I am. I'm working hard on understanding the definition of faith as RISK, but I'm crashing more than I'm flying lol...reminds me of another part of the same song...

And like a newborn baby

Don't be afraid to crawl,

And remember when we walk

Sometimes we fall...

So fall on Jesus,

Fall on Jesus,

Fall on Jesus and LIVE!

Guys, I truly covet your prayers. I need them. I can't get thru my days without them. I'm keeping my nose above water right now...and I need you. More than ever.

trusting more & fearing less,

Sarah